In Search of Connection

I’m looking for someone who won’t ice me out when times get tough. I’m in the process of growing and learning, especially after the loss of my mom six months ago. I’m still figuring out who I am, and I need someone who sees me at my core, appreciates who I am now, and supports my journey toward becoming a better version of myself. In return, I want to offer the same—someone who is willing to reciprocate that growth and care. But if there’s no balance, it can drain me and risk me losing myself again.

Life is full of so many different energies right now, and I’m constantly navigating the complexities of myself and those around me. It’s exhausting, and lately, it’s hard to tell what’s real and what’s not. I’ve been trying to stay close to myself and to the people I’ve known before this new chapter, but even they struggle with how to support me, and often withdraw. As a result, I often feel deeply alone.

I’ve been leaning into mindfulness, meditation, and writing to help me find balance. Recently, I had the privilege of meditating with a Buddhist Monk, and these practices have been pivotal in helping me reconnect with myself. I’m searching for a tribe, for love, for connection. I sometimes question whether it even exists for me, but I know I exist, and I believe we’re all interconnected like puzzle pieces. I trust that my tribe will find me, and my person will too. Every moment now is a step toward that, and I will continue to trust in the divine flow of life.

What practices help you feel grounded and connected during difficult times?